hi people i havent been bothered to rite ova the past week or so i have been working all weekend and i was just relaxing yesterday and monday. me and john got back together  which is cool.   

stephs coming down tomorrow so ill be seeing alice and joe woohooooo

anyways am a  college so cant rite much i will try and rtie agen when i get home,

Lea xx

Yesterday wasnt exactly the best day of my life. John and I split up and mum and dad had a huge go at me whic wasnt at all nice. Johns getting better attention than I am, Maybe I did finish with him but Im still there daughter not an outsider which I feel like at the moment.

I had Sarah around me to cheer me up and she really helped me a lot (Thanx Hunny, It means a lot to me)........

I spent a while sorting all my stuff out and putting it all in my old room and it felt really strange...... I suppose Ill get used to it.

OMG!!! We've just been told we dont have to go into college tomorrow!! Ive got to come into town anyway cos John has the docs about his heart and he wanrs me to go with him............. Then hes going back to Bimringham for a week, I dont want to lose touch with him cos hes a really good mate aswell.

Well im in claass and the tutor wont stop going on..................so im going to go to sleep hehe.

Hiya

Well at the mo am in college and dont start for another 15 minutes, am feeling like shit and got a load of stuff going through my head. My stomach is killing me and my head is spinning. An I feel like Ive been shoved in an oven for an hour.

Sorry I havent written for a while so much has gone on and havent had the chance to write. Me and John have done nothing but row and we both finding it hard to trust each other over what has happened over the past few weeks.  I dunno what I want to do right now, Im all confused.

Dale and Sarahs 18th Tomorrow, Happy Birthday Guys

10 minutes till we start lesson. so Im going to go.

Lea xx

Omg I aint written in so long......

Ive been really busy at home what with mum and dad being away, but theyre back now  They said it was good apart from Melvin cos all he did was moan and act like a 10 year old child. No change there.... Im kinda glad to have them back cos I missed them. Mum bought me some tops which are really nice and steph bought me a star sign teddy bear.

I got to be up at half 5 in the morning to go to work,  omg, I dunno if im going to be able to get up lol. Im trying to do 3 things at once here and its not easy lol.

John and I had another massive row AGAIN! He walked out and I couldnt find him, before he walked out he said maybe I should find someone else at college.  I went to find him and couldnt find him then I was walking towards the pub and I saw him at the bus stop. We had a long talk and were ok now

The past two days have been fun and boring all rolled into one. Yesterday at college was sooo boring I could have fallen asleep, and today is boring to cause the lessons r crap. Last night was sooooo fun. Sarah and James stayed round and it was a complete laugh.

We did a ouija board and spoke to three people, we did it in my living room which I was kinda scared about but it was cool. We asked to be contacted with my auntie who is called Wendy, but I was having doubts and then Sarah askes if we had spoke to her before and she said yes. We then relaised it was Wendy from school. After that we stopped doin it, we were gonna do it again but John and James sed no.

Well am going to have to go I got lesson but I will right again tonight.

Lea xx

Well ummm, why havent I written for so long, Well over the weekend I hardly come on due to the fact my parents have gone away for the week YES!!! and another reason I havent had a chance to get on cos John has been on.

Mum and dad have gone on holiday and left me and J to look after the house and its a tip lol but I dont really care cos its gonna be tidy for when they get back.

Cant wait till tomorrow cos Sarah and James are staying over, got some drink, , and Sarahs bringing her ouija board. Its gonng be so fun. Rite now Im feeling like shit cos I think Im getting a cold. Got sneezes and headache and all the symptons.

Im on msn with dale and his mate luke and they are scaring the crap out of me going crazy so i thought Id leave them to it and write in here. Now they are going crazy saying my name cos I aint speaking, I dont know them to lol they scare me.

Well today has been fun and thats a VERY sarcastic fun. Done jack crap at college and had a tour of the college and I no where everything is anyways. So that was boring.

I come home and had to go to work  which was as boring as ever, very boring, theres never anything to do anymore, dunno why I go in to be honest. Then John took me to the pub and bought me dinner, awww bless him, Love ya hun.

Found out Dales mum's getin married. LMAO she wants him to wear a kilt. HaHa. I was laughin it was funny. Dale called me sweet cos I always say hi to his mum lol. She seems nice so I just say hello. Saw Sarah again, my hunny, shes as crazy as ever, bless her, love her to pieces.

Well ummm... as you can probably tell Im bored, and I got college soon, so Im gonna have to leave soon. Im talkin to Sarah and Dale (Hey guys!), Sarahs writin her journal and Dales, just Dale hehe.

College is going to be boring, got a tour of the college, why do I need to do that when I no my way around anyways? Grr, Well I gotta go in a minute so me gonna say bye to me best pals.

Today has been a long and boring, yet kind of fun day. First day back at college and had to sit through health and safety and logging onto the college network, I did that all last year and was still as boring as hell. But I suppose the worst things are out the way, but got the tour of the college tomorrow for all the new kids, how fun. I'll be like ye I no, I no. Wot fun! One other girl in my class, all the others are guys. 21 lads in a class lol, shame there aint no good lookin ones hehe, nah Im kiddin, I got the man I want. I saw loadsa people from the last course. Dan, Jon H (hes in my class newayz), Angelica, JC, hes still as big headed as ever.

Well at the mo Im sat here bored, talkin to Dale and hes as crazy as ever, Johns watching the bill. So I thought Id come on here for an hour. Dale starts college Monday which means Im gonna b bored on MSN and RuneScape  Im gonna miss the fun we have. He makes me laugh bless him. Hes a good mate to me. OK................ dales just typed a load of mumbo jumbo.

Well am off now, shall rite agen soon.

Bye Bye Sexy hehe

Im sat here in front of a wet keyboard. My tears have been flooding for the past 15 minutes. Why? All I can think of is my auntie who passed away 4 years ago. I didnt cry when she died but now everytime I even see her name or think of her I am reduced to tears. I need her with me so much, to hold me, to now that shes alrite. I hope she is, I cant let her be in pain like she was when she died. I know how much she was hurting, cos now I can feel her pain. I cant breathe.....

I just want her to know how much I love her. I hope she knows, I never got the chance to tell her which fucks me off. I love her more now than I ever did.

Wendy I love you and I always will.